Golden Birthday

    “If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me.”

    On this day, six years ago, this little dude made me into a first time mama.You have taught me so munch about life – both beautiful and tough lessons weren’t taught by you. You are pure magic, my child. You test the boundaries, every single day, but I honestly wouldn’t have it any other way. You’re my twin, and I think that has a lot to do with the fact that we bump heads more often than not. You’re a fire sign (Aries), and I’m a water sign (Scorpio) – we clash a lot, but we are soooo alike in so many crazy ways.

    I love your big heart and your need to always be near your dad or I when watching a show or reading a book, always have to be touching one of us. You have grown so much this past year – I mean so much it’s insane to think about. I though five was a big jump, but screw that, five to six is HUGE. I feel like you were still so baby at five… now you’re like a big kid. Man, bittersweet. It’s amazing to watch you grow into this awesome human, but I miss your little baby hands, curly little head, your baby breath & that sweet, tiny voice of yours. Now you have a missing tooth, loosing other teeth, reading, learning French, going to the kitchen alone (even though you’re not supposed to), talking about all these big kid things and just acting like a big kid. It’s mind blowing, and I know that this year around the sun is just going to get even crazier.

    There are definitely moments where I catch a little “baby” still inside of you, and that part I hold onto SUPERRRR freaking tight.

    Ronin, you have taught me so much about life in the last six years, and I am so excited to learn more through watching, guiding, standing behind and next to you for years to come. Life has been so special with you, and you’re constantly encouraging me to SLOW DOWN & take in all the moments in. Thank you for making me into the mama that I am. Thank you for having patience with me. Thank you for loving me unconditionally, Ro. I know I make a lot of mistake, but I know you know I am always trying.

    Happy Birthday, kiddo. I hope this next year around the sun is amazing, special and magical like you are. I can’t wait to see what this year unfolds for you. I can’t wait for more adventures and memories we have together. I love you, my love. I love you more than you know.

    Well, Hello!

    Hi friends! I know, I know – It’s been awhile. You guys, I needed to take a break from blogging. Everything I was starting to post just felt forced, empty, repetitive and meaningless. I was starting to feel some type of way about blogging – so that is why I decided to take a much needed break, make it a goal to give my little corner a facelift, and come back with a “true to Sybi” outlook on life.

    If you’re an old follower – Welcome back(!), but most importantly, THANK YOU for sticking around for this long and for patiently waiting on me to come back to blogging. You guys rock!

    If you’re a new follower – Welcome to my little blogging corner! I really hope I don’t bore you, and that you guys stick around for awhile.

    Let me introduce myself – my name is Sybianna but most people know me as Sybi. I’m seven years deep with my amazing husband and we made two beautiful boys together – Ronin will be six on Thursday & Thurman turned one a few weeks ago. I was a stay at home mom for five years but decided to end that adventure and enter back into the teaching world – I’m currently an infant lead teacher at a Waldorf inspired school. I am an adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and because of my abuse, I suffer from severe depression. I’m also an activist for sexual abuse victims & mental health. I’m also a sexual assault survivor. I am a lover of life and live for spontaneous adventures. I thrive whenever I am near big bodies of water – I am a water sign. As much as I love consistency and daily rhythms…I NEED change. I’m an observer, and sometimes that has been mistaken as me being stuck up. I trust with my whole heart, and when I DO give you that trust (& my heart), it’s very hard for me to let go. I’m BIG on loyalty. I’m a sucker for 80/90’s pop music, I know 99% of all rap lyrics, Pepsi is my jam but so is Orange soda, I could eat my weight in sushi and macaroons, I’m a total tv series junkie, old Disney movies are life, a good ole DIY craft is needed every now and then, Hootie & The Blowfish and Boyz II Men can still make me sob like a little baby, naps on naps on naps, cooking & swimming is my therapy, dancing sessions are always needed and living life to the fullest will always be a top priority of mine. I struggle with depression, but, there is always a bright light at the end of the tunnel for me to follow and look forward to.

    I really hope you guys decide to follow along – I promise there’s so much more for me to share…I’ve had time to sit and reflect on things, and I cross my heart it’s not all “boring” stuff. Hahaha.